the four right chords can make me cry

The loneliness from yesterday largely evaporated during my sleep, as things like that usually do. But as i trudged down to work, and off on my break alone, they surfaced again. Twas a hot blistering day to be walking around the stifling bugis village, so i bought myself a mango milk tea. an indulgence, at a whooping $2 a cup. But it was nice and sweet and cold, and it lifted my mood somewhat. Then i found my red bull shirt! Happy! But they didnt have my size. Oh well, at least i know where to look for them now.

Back to work, early, cos i had run out of places to walk around in. Ben was sleeping on the table, so i quietly sit down and read my bible. Was reading the passage Ivan preached on sunday, 1 Samuel 17. and kept on going! Cos the story of David has so much action, jealousy, murderous intent, extreme friendship, father-son relations, war, decapitation etc. Hard to put down, really.

Work was slow today, i worked outside, and there werent many customers, not busy at all. Talked to Annie more, and NUS Life Science is sounding worse and worse by the second. Humbug. But towards the end of the night Adam also talked alot to us, heck, even I talked more. It was nice, cos for once i felt like part of the conversation, not just like i was being talked to. The joys of working with people your own age and demographic! (university bound) And in english, lets not forget that's still pretty important for me.

Even Ben talked to me today! What he said really made me feel happy, but also really reflective. He said that of the 3 part-timers (me, Jane, and JinYu), he always thought that i would be the first to leave. Like all those people who worked a few days and couldnt take it. Confirmed my suspicions, he DID think i was lousy and he DID want to fire me (read the archives). But he said he felt bad, cos he saw that i wanted the job, and that i was trying hard. "Actually, i showed the most patience with you." And really, he did. I really was terrible at waitressing.

"should take photo; before and after." He actually said that he was proud of me, that i could now handle even the big heavy trays, that i had come so far. =) He said that now i am the first choice out of 11 (that's football-speak, which i actually understand now, amazingly). "This one, always smiling at customers one."

I'm so pleased to see that my hard work actually paid off, that my service didnt go unnoticed. I'm proud of myself, that i persevered, even when i felt so sucky about myself. Another reason why waitressing is the most rewarding job in the world! I feel i have achieved something, i feel that i'm a better person than when i first started and i would not have done it any other way.

Adam told us the sad story of his breakup. His girlfriend of 5 long years left him saying that she was too busy. Then she got attached to this German guy! And the worst part was, Adam was the one who actually started talking to that guy one day outside a lecture theatre! OUCH!!!

More about Adam. Ben actually banned him from working in the kitchen, cos all the cooks were getting too fond of him. Adam is now also forbidden from calling them "darling". (but i call everyone darling! he retorted later, which is true) And its really funny, cos they DO like him alot and say things like "what were you doing outside just now? I jealous!" And everyday they ask "Where's Adam?" and they used to keep calling Abang Adam accidentally-on-purpose.

So i felt much better today, having people talk to me. I guess that's all i really needed.

posted by beckyboo @ 12:11 AM